I woke up this morning, did my daily yoga*, and then started up my laptop. It’s Monday. I have a blog post to write. Instead, I got distracted by my day job, had an artist fall through unexpectedly, and ended up spending most of the night trying to recover from both of those things. In the end, I have no idea what I want to write about tonight, other than this, and I’m short a piece of art for my book.
Honestly, experiences like this are going to happen. Constantly. Life is unpredictable and happens while you’re making plans. In the past year or so, I’ve had to learn how to appropriately process these kind of derailments. I have generalized anxiety disorder, and before I started treatment, something like this would’ve consumed my day. And not in a productive way. No, I would’ve wasted away worrying about how to handle this sudden, unexpected change, frozen in place by the sudden upheaval in my carefully planned day.
I have to admit, I’m pretty happy that I was able to rather quickly process what had happened, respond to the artist in a calm and professional manner, and move forward with finding a replacement. And while this isn’t necessarily something I want to get use to doing, it’s something I can appreciate being able to do. It’s progress from where I used to be, and that’s well worth the stress.
Actually, this has been the second time in the past week that I’ve gotten derailed. This weekend was supposed to be spent doing significant work on the manuscript for Reader, especially since Sunday was our second family Christmas. Saturday was going to be a day spent writing. Instead, I had to do some very fast, very in-depth work on updating the website for Burner that kept me from working on writing until late in the evening.
And I find myself in a similar position tonight. But instead of beating myself up over it, I’m going to focus on the positive, realign myself with the tracks, and get this train running again. Which means a short, rambling blog post for tonight. 🙂 Hopefully, you’ll find something useful in this post. Probably you won’t. But it’s been helpful for me, so I appreciate you taking the time to read it.
See you all on Wednesday, where I will actually write something of substance.
*This is a new thing. I am trying to be a better person in 2017. So far, I have found that waking up early and exercising are two things I do not enjoy doing, but enjoy benefiting from. Life is a constant struggle, obviously*.
*This is a joke. I am not funny.